I want to start by thanking each and every one of you all. I’ve been blogging through this platform since 2018 and honestly, I have made many friends that I will miss a lot.
I have decided to take a break.. I recently lost a very close loved one and I am having a hard time keeping myself busy or trying to find my purpose.
With this said, in my personal life, so many things are currently changing and with those changes I am required to put a lot more effort into my schedule.
I am also in the process of going into my second year of teaching! I am very nervous about COVID-19 and how my classroom and school structure will change.
Love you all and stay safe!
“What is the difference between remote and distance learning?”everyone around the world
-During our current situation I’ve heard the terms “remote” and “distance learning” being thrown around. The term that I’ve been hearing lately is “online learning” which made me realize you can call it whatever you want but I am sure everyone may have similar feelings towards each.
What is it like?
I’ve been connecting with my kiddos through Teams (video conference calls) for about six weeks now (this is week number 6 for us) and I still miss seeing my kiddos in our regular school setting. I must say that our Principal and Assistant Principal have done an amazing job helping everyone and ensuring everyone remains connected, not only as “staff” but as a family. We are truly very blessed to have our school’s counselor available not only for our kiddos and their families but for our staff too. The district also has a program for our children to get breakfast and lunch everyday.
In addition, it is a work in progress that we keep trying to celebrating and embracing everyday. Some days in my intervention groups, I have 2-3 kiddos sign in, other days I have more. I must admit, it is often very hard to remain positive, but that’s when having a team and family come in. Although I am literally plugged to my laptop from 8 to 5 sometimes. My back is literally killing me as well as my neck pain. Something that I am enjoying is using the restroom whenever I want to.
With this said, I can not imagine what educators that have children of their own are going through. Personally, I do not have any children of my own, but I have a sister with special needs. I try to create as many learning experiences and as many entertaining memories for her but she misses school. It breaks my heart that she does not understand what is going on and why she can not see her friends. However, I am grateful that I get to see her beautiful smile everyday. I am also very blessed to spend more time with my mom at home.
What did you have to make peace with?”My therapist
I have not completely made peace with everything but I am learning to let go of things I have no control over. I am heart broken. I am so sad I did not get a chance to give my kiddos and colleagues a proper goodbye. I did not get a chance to hug them as much as I would of liked. It makes my heart hurt that they will not get a chance to sign my yearbook or share stories with me. I also will not get the chance to hug to say goodbye to my teacher/friends that are retiring and moving. I did not get a chance to train my future safety patrols. The only thing that helps me find comfort is knowing that God has a plan.
I hope to be back soon. I love you all very much. I also appreciate all the sweet messages and all the shares. I pray you are doing well.
As you can see I’m so excited! It’s official! I made it to Winter break! The last two weeks were very challenging, but I made it! I’m currently on the plane on my way home! Christmas Eve is almost here and I’m going to get the chance to spend it with my family! I haven’t been home for about three years now! I’m so excited! I’ll finally get a chance to meet some of my family members from my momma’s side and I can’t wait!
I also have to vent about my terrible experience with Delta! I’m so disappointed. Every time I fly, I always fly with Delta. However, this is my second time traveling with my sister and mom through Delta. The first time was wonderful compared to today! The staff members in the check-ins and the Homeland security crew were so so rude!
Furthermore, traveling with my sister isn’t an easy process as we wish it would be. Her wheelchair often gives us trouble. Today was so horrible I felt so sick and wanted to cry! Yes, I had a panic attack! When the checking in process and baggage check was all over, I looked over to my mom and could see that I wasn’t being dramatic at all.
My Goal For This Week: To eat tacos from Tacos Ayala, and seafood from Las Palmeras! I also have to fix my room and get rid of all my old furniture!
✐C. Lopez M! ♡
Before you start to read this please be aware this journaling entry is very personal and it is extremely a very sensitive topic for me. Lately I have been questioning all my previous and current life changing decisions and the motives behind them and it all finally clicked.
As I am revising my 5 year plan, I’ve noticed so many events have taken place. Events that I honestly did not plan, events I had no idea would happen, and events that were expected. Back when I was in HS my 5 year plan consisted of personal growth and it has been a wild rollercoaster! As I reflect on my college years, I realize that I always felt pressured to graduate on time and finish everything in a timely manner.
After speaking to my parents and some soul searching, I realized when and where it all started. The year I lost my grandma. I lost my grandma when I was about to turn 12. As soon as I found out I canceled my birthday party. You know it is not easy to deal with the death of a loved one. But losing a grandparent is indescribable. Realizing you will not see them or speak to them or hear their voice is the most painful part of it all. Going back to Mexico and not having her around to talk to, hug, or sit with has been the worst pain in the world. Since that year I felt completely guilty. Guilty, because I felt like I ran out of time to make her proud. She did not get a chance to see me grow as an individual. She did not get a chance to see the amazing daughter (my mom) she raised be the World’s Best Mother. Ever since that I year I realized my life was a race against time. A race against time to reach my goals and make my family proud. I know that ironically death is a part of life, but I am not okay with it at all.
With this said, I realized I have always and still continue to speed up my journey. Most of the time I forget to relax and enjoy the little moments in life, even the little chaos life throws at me. The fact that it has been almost a year since I graduated college makes my realize how fast life moves and we have no control over time. “El tiempo no perdona.”
So what’s next? Instead of running full speed I plan to walk the race by the ones I love and enjoy the time and view.
I hope you all have a blessed day!
Thank you for journaling with me! Until next time.