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“Teaching” during COVID-19

“What is the difference between remote and distance learning?”

everyone around the world

-During our current situation I’ve heard the terms “remote” and “distance learning” being thrown around. The term that I’ve been hearing lately is “online learning” which made me realize you can call it whatever you want but I am sure everyone may have similar feelings towards each.

What is it like?

I’ve been connecting with my kiddos through Teams (video conference calls) for about six weeks now (this is week number 6 for us) and I still miss seeing my kiddos in our regular school setting. I must say that our Principal and Assistant Principal have done an amazing job helping everyone and ensuring everyone remains connected, not only as “staff” but as a family. We are truly very blessed to have our school’s counselor available not only for our kiddos and their families but for our staff too. The district also has a program for our children to get breakfast and lunch everyday.

In addition, it is a work in progress that we keep trying to celebrating and embracing everyday. Some days in my intervention groups, I have 2-3 kiddos sign in, other days I have more. I must admit, it is often very hard to remain positive, but that’s when having a team and family come in. Although I am literally plugged to my laptop from 8 to 5 sometimes. My back is literally killing me as well as my neck pain. Something that I am enjoying is using the restroom whenever I want to.

With this said, I can not imagine what educators that have children of their own are going through. Personally, I do not have any children of my own, but I have a sister with special needs. I try to create as many learning experiences and as many entertaining memories for her but she misses school. It breaks my heart that she does not understand what is going on and why she can not see her friends. However, I am grateful that I get to see her beautiful smile everyday. I am also very blessed to spend more time with my mom at home.

What did you have to make peace with?”

My therapist

I have not completely made peace with everything but I am learning to let go of things I have no control over. I am heart broken. I am so sad I did not get a chance to give my kiddos and colleagues a proper goodbye. I did not get a chance to hug them as much as I would of liked. It makes my heart hurt that they will not get a chance to sign my yearbook or share stories with me. I also will not get the chance to hug to say goodbye to my teacher/friends that are retiring and moving. I did not get a chance to train my future safety patrols. The only thing that helps me find comfort is knowing that God has a plan.


I hope to be back soon. I love you all very much. I also appreciate all the sweet messages and all the shares. I pray you are doing well.

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Feeling Conflicted About December Holidays + A Teacher’s Diary .. Send Help..

Hi! I hope you are enjoying this cozy weather! I have my heater on, fully blasting!

As all of you know, December is here! Meaning December’s holidays have arrived. As an educator, my weakness is trying to cater to everyone. With this said, I try to remain as neutral/unbiased as possible. I am aware that not everyone celebrates a certain holiday in December. So I take certain measures to ensure everyone in my classes feel welcomed. However, I’ve recently encountered a small teacher guilt moment. Many of my older kiddos have noticed the classroom does not have an elf on the self (their homeroom does), nor is our classroom decorated with Santas and reindeers (other classrooms are.) My classroom looks pretty much very blah at the moment. Although, I added a gnome and a tealight holder (it looks much better now than before.)

As I walk around, I see most of my colleagues so happily in their holiday sweaters, cute Santa earrings, and their classroom doors are tremendously festive. Then, there is me. I seriously feel like the grinch, it’s official, one of my kiddos called me out. I am unsure of what to do. Of course, I will be doing goodie bags for my kiddos that may include a snowflake pencil or a couple of Winter related items but I am unsure if I should include Christmas items. The last thing I ever want to do is offend or disrespect my children’s culture and beliefs. Have you felt like this before? If so, let me know I am not alone.

Am I officially a grinch? Help me, please.

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P.S. I normally don’t wear other earrings (I like to stick to my knot ones), but I caved and now own these Snowmen earrings.

 

 

 

*Side note: I purchased the beautiful handmade holiday gnome and tealight holder from a very talented colleague.

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Note from a friend.

Hi, everyone!

How are you? How are you feeling?

I wanted to get on here and do a quick catch up.

We all know how difficult the last week before break gets. This previous week was one of the most challenging weeks by far. Lately, I’ve been feeling dizzy, tired, and lightheaded. I thought I was catching a cold or maybe it was stress. It all started to get more complicated around Tuesday and Wednesday. I knew something was wrong when different people from my team were dropping by or checking on me because they realized I wasn’t being myself. However, it wasn’t until Friday that I decided it was time to reach out to my doctor and also to my family and friends (including my school family.) This weekend was the perfect time to reflect on everything. I’m currently working two jobs and assumed that I was getting burnt out. I also thought it could be my anxiety or seasonal depression. Turns out, I was completely wrong. I need to make my physical, mental, and spiritual health a priority. Since last Friday, my body has been sending me signs that I have completely ignored. I am not ready to talk about my current situation, but when I feel ready I will share the journey with you.

Note to a Friend:

With this said, I urge you to listen to your body. You are your most sincere friend and your health should always come first. Listen to your gut. You may have heard this about a thousand times, but your intuition is always right. If you are feeling tired, drowsy, or anything other than your usual self reach out to a professional. You are NOT alone.